wow.. just wow.

So Sunday morning the mechanic who was was working on my car came to my house drunk. Started hitting on me and wouldn't stop. I asked him to leave, he wouldn't. He went out to my car, continued to drink and passed out next to it. The cops picked him up next to it. Needless to say, I no longer have a mechanic. So the job is halfway done now. And it's just sitting.

Tuesday, my dad calls me and tell me that my Great Aunt Rosie died. I loved her so much. She was the sweetest woman. She reminded me so much of grandma. It amazes me how much I remember my grandma when she died of cancer when I was 6 years old. I thought she was the most magnificent woman though. I haven't seen my Great Aunt Rosie in years, she lived all the way up in Int'll Falls. I don't make it up there very often anymore.

I had someone who was incredibly important in my life let me down a lot. Massively messed up my financial situation, even more so than it already is. Somehow it has gotten blamed on me. I'm guess I'm too emotional right now, or too needy.
Then I had another person who was a so-called friend tell me they would come over and help me get my car back together and working. Then the next day decided they had better things to do. Don't tell me one thing and do another. As far as I am concerned that makes you a liar. I don't associate with liars.

I got so discouraged I had to make a list of things I was grateful for. I need to remember the things that I am grateful for in this life. Although things are bad, they could always be worse.

I am so grateful to have two wonderful, handsome, intelligent children who have filled my heart with laughter and love.

I am grateful for my dad, he is a fantastic, smart man who has taught me so many lessons in life.

I am grateful for my true and close friends. You are few and far between and I treasure you.

I am grateful for my cats, they are my constant companions. (As I write this, Isis is cuddled up with me purring)

I am grateful to my ex's and lost friendships, for the lessons that you have taught me. Although you may have hurt me along the way, and perhaps even broke my heart you made me the strong individual I am now. I am proud to be that person.

I am grateful to have a roof over my head every single month, even if I don't have money for anything else after I pay my bills.

I am grateful that I have the strength to walk without a cane again. It was a rough road for a long time. It was humiliating for me, and it was scary. I know that one day it may happen again, but I am so happy for this time without it.