Reflection

It seems that lately I have been reflecting a lot without even trying to. I know that Mercury was in retrograde earlier this month. The purpose of Mercury retrograde is to review and revise our life and our connection with reality. So I suppose it only makes sense. The universe is just making me deal with things whether I want to or not.

I hear songs that are incredibly important in my life. They just pull my heartstrings. Normally when I hear these songs I can just keep going. Right now, I burst into tears or it takes everything I have not to burst into tears.

I am having a really hard time being around people if they are overly negative. Not for the normal reason that its just a pain in the ass to deal with but because it is actually physically/mentally draining me. Now if I am not feeling well, I can't handle being around anyone that I don't know and therefore don't trust. I don't think I can even explain how it feels to be not feeling well, and then be around people. It's like I can feel all their negativity and emotions, and I don't have the energy and focus to block it out. Sometimes its just taxing to go to the grocery store when I don't feel good, because of all the emotions of people everywhere. Sounds strange, I know.


When I came home tonight I sat outside at looked up at the full moon. I asked the universe, the gods and goddesses what they were trying to tell me. What they were trying to make me aware of.



Here's one other odd thing.... I seen a woman tonight that I was actually VERY attracted to tonight. I get that "yeah she's cute thing"... I've felt that for years with women. But I haven't been attracted to a woman like this since my ex-girlfriend. That was 5 years ago. I honestly wanted to go up to this woman and just look her deep in the eyes and kiss her. I actually want to know who she is. I am interested in who she is as a person.
That's not at all like me anymore.......