When you have something you really love but it cause you so much problems and pain, is it either the universe telling you to leave it or testing you to hold it?
How many times have any of us had to ask ourselves that question? I have had to ask myself that one too many times. I have held on to the bitter end on so many occasions just to end up battered and bruised with an even more broken heart than I would've had if I'd have just left. But I'm so stubborn if I don't exhaust it to that point, I always wonder what might have been if I had just tried "this" or "that". Hell, even after I still think if I would've just done "this" or "that" differently it probably would've been better.
The question ends up being how much are you willing to take? How much can you take before you just can't take anymore? I know it is different limits for all of us. Five years ago, I would've put up with a lot more than what I put up with now. Ten years ago I would have put up with just about anything, and did. We won't even go back to how stupid I was fifteen years ago. I have become such a strong independent woman. I have been battling this disease, (with a few friends) but for the most part on my own. I have been doing things just for me. And when someone doesn't treat me the way I deserve to be treated, I don't keep them in my life. So being that person, why in the world would I want to keep any negativity in my life? Why would I want someone in my life that is bringing me problems and pain, even if I really love them? It's hard to know what the universe is really trying to tell me because it is such a good question.
I will revert back to one of my favorite quotes..... "no man is worth your tears, and if he is... he will never make you cry"
Saturday, May 14, 2011
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